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Hi. I am still fat

Sooooo, I have not written in a very long time. And that is because I have been eating.

Last Nov/December I had started on a re-freshed weight loss effort. My motivation was my friend’s wedding where I was going to be a bridesmaid. I deliberately sent measurements that were an inch less than the real ones to force me to lose weight. If i was fat, I woudn’t be able to fit into the dress.

I did very well by going down from 91.2kg to 87.2kg.

BUT! I ended up not being able to go for the wedding because of finances.

PLUS, December happened.

So, I have re-gained it all… well, I was 90.2 this morning 😦

The Goal

I would like to lose 10kgs by 30 April 2017 – 3.5 months from now

Part 1: I want to drop 5kgs first. This needs to happen by 15 February – About a month from now. This equates to about 1kg per week. And I believe it is possible as I have done it before.

Part 2: After the first 5kg is done, I will work towards the other 5kgs. I know it will be harder, that’s why I am giving myself more time to get rid of it.

I am hoping that by 30 April, I would have adopted healthier eating habits, smaller portions and more exercise.

The 2017 Plan

To fight the fat, I am going to eat less. My new job makes that very possible. I am too far from any shops and so, can’t just go out the door for a quick snack.

Whatever I bring from home is all I can eat.

I don’t eat breakfast anymore. I only have lunch at 12pm. Usually I will have 3 or 4 slices of bread with tomato, ham and slice of cheese. And then not eat anything until I have supper at home.

Yesterday I was bad and spent waaaay too much money on a piece of carrot cake from the coffee shop downstairs. That won’t be happening again because it is a waste of money and I ALWAYS feel bad when I eat like that.

One thing I need to learn how to do is to portion control dinner. Because my last meal was at lunch, I find myself eating way too much at supper.

Last week I did ok with regards to this “diet”, but had potato chips and other stuff. The weekend I binged quite a bit – IT WAS BAD. Wolfing down 8 KFC wings + a big packet of potato chips is not normal.

I want to start running.. even if it is for 10 minutes. That’s where the challenge is going to be.




I REALLY REALLY want chocolate coated peanuts

If I am to get them, that’s over 400 calories.

I would go and get them, but my eating hasn’t been good this week… In fact, it’s been bad since last week…. e.g the 2 pies incident.

Yesterday I had a triple chocolate doughnut, on Monday I had a white chocolate kit kat, last Thursday I had 2 red velvet cupcakes.

I feel as if the binge monster is emerging from the grave I thought I had buried it.

I JUST finished having lunch (2 minute noodles)… and now I want the chocolate coated peanuts.

Keep in mind, I left my bank card at home to prevent me from making the bad purchases I have been making of late. However, I have enough cash on me for the peanuts.

But I believe I know what the cause is….

In order to curb my cravings for sweet desserts, I had been having hard sweets. I’d pop one into my mouth after a meal to prevent my cravings for chocolate.

It has helped in the past, but I have become concerned about my teeth… so I am trying to wean myself off them.

The result? Back to craving chocolates and the like.

Sigh. The cycle.

ALSO, I did not go to the gym today… I went yesterday and had a swim, but I did not exercise well because I was using a new swimming cap that kept slipping off my head and it discouraged me from swimming fast or for long.

I am trying the gum thing… but so far it isn’t helping as much as I’d like it to… maybe I need to try a different brand??

Anyway, I will wait an hour and if I still want the peanuts, I will have them.


Edit: I ended up getting a bar of chocolate coated coconut (270 calories). Sweet tooth was abated…

Write, don’t spend?

I’ve come to the realisation that I have two vices in life…OVER-EATING and OVER-SPENDING. The food part I’ve been aware of for many years. However, the spending is something I realised I have a big problem with at the weekend.

I’m always broke, but I’d always thought that was because I was bad with money. But I’m not bad with money, I’m bad with wanting to spend it all. Within 2 or 3 days of getting paid, I’ll be on the broke side of the spectrum.

Now, I have come to the realisation that I am addicted to spending. I will swipe my card like there is no tomorrow buying things like food and drinks (See why I’m so overweight???). I rarely have something physical to show for my spending. There are all kinds of things that I need, new bedding, new pots, new curtains…and I always have intentions of buying these things.

My budget usually looks quite healthy, and because of this, I feel ”rich” and find myself swiping more than intended. Every month I tell myself, this time it’s going to be different…but that is almost never the case.

Anyway, hopefully because I have recognised this very real problem, I will start researching on how NOT TO SPEND. I still have a bit of money left…mainly because I did not put anything into savings, and a couple of my friends owe me a bit of money.

But, I am hoping I survive this month, and avoid avoid avoid spending a lot of money of food I shouldn’t be having to begin with.

Maybe I should create a spending diary to see if I can curb and keep track of my spending…yeah?