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Hi. I am still fat

Sooooo, I have not written in a very long time. And that is because I have been eating.

Last Nov/December I had started on a re-freshed weight loss effort. My motivation was my friend’s wedding where I was going to be a bridesmaid. I deliberately sent measurements that were an inch less than the real ones to force me to lose weight. If i was fat, I woudn’t be able to fit into the dress.

I did very well by going down from 91.2kg to 87.2kg.

BUT! I ended up not being able to go for the wedding because of finances.

PLUS, December happened.

So, I have re-gained it all… well, I was 90.2 this morning 😦

The Goal

I would like to lose 10kgs by 30 April 2017 – 3.5 months from now

Part 1: I want to drop 5kgs first. This needs to happen by 15 February – About a month from now. This equates to about 1kg per week. And I believe it is possible as I have done it before.

Part 2: After the first 5kg is done, I will work towards the other 5kgs. I know it will be harder, that’s why I am giving myself more time to get rid of it.

I am hoping that by 30 April, I would have adopted healthier eating habits, smaller portions and more exercise.

The 2017 Plan

To fight the fat, I am going to eat less. My new job makes that very possible. I am too far from any shops and so, can’t just go out the door for a quick snack.

Whatever I bring from home is all I can eat.

I don’t eat breakfast anymore. I only have lunch at 12pm. Usually I will have 3 or 4 slices of bread with tomato, ham and slice of cheese. And then not eat anything until I have supper at home.

Yesterday I was bad and spent waaaay too much money on a piece of carrot cake from the coffee shop downstairs. That won’t be happening again because it is a waste of money and I ALWAYS feel bad when I eat like that.

One thing I need to learn how to do is to portion control dinner. Because my last meal was at lunch, I find myself eating way too much at supper.

Last week I did ok with regards to this “diet”, but had potato chips and other stuff. The weekend I binged quite a bit – IT WAS BAD. Wolfing down 8 KFC wings + a big packet of potato chips is not normal.

I want to start running.. even if it is for 10 minutes. That’s where the challenge is going to be.

 

 

Not happy with my progress

The lowest I’ve been these last couple of weeks was 88.0kg (down from 89.2kg when I last wrote here)….That elusive “87” seems to be slipping away as I’ve gained about 600g since that low 88.0kg weight. Today I’m 88.6kg.

I haven’t been low carb because of budget issues. It’s cheaper to buy a loaf of bread to last you the week, than to buy veggies and meat for the week #JanuaryDisease

Anyway, I get paid next Tuesday, so I’ll be able to afford fresh veggies and pair them with nicely cooked meat.

I got back into the gym a couple of weeks ago. It felt very good… Don’t ask me why I haven’t been back.

However, I carried my gym bag and intend on having a quick session after work.

Let’s see how that goes.

I’ve had a bad week

So, last week had been going fine, then I had to go for a 24 hour retreat thing for work.

It was basically 24hours of delicious food and  1st class wine.

Of course I mentally prepped myself for the challenges ahead.

However, when each of the 12 courses on the first night were presented, I had to try them all…right?

Fortunately, MOST of them were carb-free salad type of dishes. There was a curry dish with rice, but I only ate the lamb, and there was pulled pork in a bun, I only ate the pork.

However, when dessert was presented, I lost my mind!

The next day we had a couple of physical activities, meaning I could burn one or two of the previous night’s calories.

Lunch, I was actually quite well behaved. I didn’t have any bread, and did not have the potato salad (…I wept!). I had the green salads (and some of the “bad” veggies such as beetroot) and chicken and cheese.

I also had a little bit of dessert and some macaroons later in the day.

Naturally, because I ate so much, one would expect me to be stricter with my eating.

But on Monday I was craving chocolate (something that has not happened in FOREVER!), So I ended up having a Bounty (It had the least amount of carbs for the budget I had).

Then on Tuesday, one of my work colleagues was leaving and we had beer and potato chips.

I had about 50g of chips and one beer…. I felt terrible.

Surprisingly I’ve not gained any weight…This morning I was 89.5kg.

I’m adding exercise now, to help my body shift the weight.

I’ll start off with intense 10 minute exercises.

Here’s to another week!

 

 

The YO-YO is the devil!

So, i had been doing well… watching my food and recording it everyday etc.

Then I stopped because I believed I was too busy to write and to log my food.

The result has been devastating.

One week of bad eating has seen me put on 3kgs! i kid you not.

The most logical explanation for this is that I am yo-yoing.

By eating fewer calories one week, then eating too many the next week, I’m gaining a lot of weight.

I might lose 1kg by eating well one week, then regain 2kg the next week when eating badly.

So, last week has been a lesson for me NOT TO DROP THE BALL!!!

Exercise will become easier for me as we head into summer with the sun rising earlier in the morning (for morning runs) and setting later (for after-work runs).

I’ve planned this week’s lunches, already (low carb veggies with a piece of chicken breast.)

Dinner will be the usual rice, meat and veg.

NO SNACKS!!!!! and no mid-week wine.

I’ll need to get fruit to nibble on mid-afternoon.

It’s a pity I have no self- discipline, otherwise, I’d get a packet of little chocolates and only have one per day.

Accountability: Days 12, 13, 14!!!! Yikes!

It’s been 2 weeks! I’d set a goal for 1 week, but I’ve cruised to 2 weeks with no trouble.

This is a very exciting achievement for me, considering the number of times I felt too “lazy” to log my food and then write a blog about it, but I did it anyway!

Though my eating has not been as clean as I want, I have been far more honest about my food intake that I’ve ever been. A year ago, I’d have logged my food, but would have left out that slice of cheese cake before bed, or the 2 glasses of wine I had with dinner. Basically trying the cheat the food logging app, even though I was only cheating myself.

I have also began a new phase in my weight loss journey… EXERCISE. I have began very slowly, with a 15 minute run on Friday and a 12 minute run on Sunday. The Friday run was great, because it was generally quite a fast run. Sunday, on the other hand, was hard. I was in pain and felt generally tired. I don’t know why.

Food Diary:

Friday 21 August

Mid-morning – 2 Slices Low carb bread, 3 slices cheese

Lunch – chicken leg (thigh and drumstick) and butternut

Afternoon snack – Pop Crisps 😦

Dinner – Rice, Boerewors and veggies with 3 glasses of wine

MyFitness Pal summary

21 Aug Fri

Saturday 22 August

Lunch – KFC streetwise two left overs, bacon, garlic ciabatta roll with glass of wine

Dinner – Chicken thigh and drumstick, potato salad with carrots with 4 glasses wine

MyFitness Pal summary:

22 Aug Sat

Sunday 23 August

This day was “unusual”> I hosted a tea party with cakes and things at home, meaning I had to carefully plan my meals for the day. Though my choice in the morning was 100% perfect, it was high protein.

Morning – bacon, egg, sausage and 2 slices bread.

Late afternoon snacks – 2 cupcakes, 2 slices of cheese cake (small-ish slices), sausage rolls

MyFitness Pal summary:

23 Aug Sunday

Today is a new day, I have another week ahead of me to make better decisions. It’s very enlightening knowing just how many calories I have from foods I used to eat without even thinking.

Accountability: Day 10

Ok, my eating this week hasn’t been very good in terms of trying to keep things low carbs and higher in vegetables. I’ve had far fewer veggies as compared to last week, and I intend on getting back on track starting today.

Food Diary:

Mid-morning – 2 muffins, coffee

Lunch – 4 slices low carb brown bread, 2 slices cheese

Dinner – half cup of savoury rice, small quarter chicken and chicken pops and 2 glasses white wine.

dinner 19 Aug

MyFitness Pal summary

19 Aug Wed

The poppers were my worst food decision of the day. I saw them, bought them and ate them without thinking, at all. I need to be extra super careful when I go to the shops.

I did a bit of exercise. Just some squats and press ups. I will be going for a run tonight

Accountability: Day 8 – ACHIEVEMENTS!!

Whoop Whoop! I have written my food diary for 8 days in a row, and I ain’t about to stop! I’ve never been a consistent person, and I am proud of my little achievement so far.

Even the scale has rewarded me. I’ve dropped 1.5kg in the last 10 days, and I am not hoping, but I WILL be seeing more and better results going forward. My end goal is to lose 10kg, but I will celebrate each kg as it comes off.

Food diary:

mid morning – coffee and 2 small muffins

Lunch – 4 slices low calorie bread, 2 slices of cheese

Dinner – creamed spinach, roast potato, 2.5 sausages and a small piece of chicken I forgot to have at lunch.

dinner 17 aug

MyFitness Pal summary:

17 Aug mon

Despite having a heavier carb day, as compared to last week, but I’ve managed to stay below the recommended amount from MyFitness Pal.

I’m going to be eating similarly to yesterday, today… and possibly the rest of the week.

I got some exercise in yesterday… WHOOP WHOOP! I jogged on the spot while watching a show.

I’m proud of my small steps towards progress 🙂

Accountability: Day Four

Yesterday started off well, and ended quite badly. I don’t know how to feel about this. I used to develop a lot of guilt when I eat badly… but all the blogs taught me not to feel bad and to focus on getting back on the right path. I’ve become very good at this, thus having more days of eating badly than eating well. Forgiving myself for mishaps became easier and easier.

I miss feeling guilty and battering myself for bad meal choices. It helped me stay on track.

Anyway, below is my meal diary for 13 August:

Mid morning breakfast – Coffee and 1 queen cake

Lunch – Broccoli and bacon salad, pasta salad with feta, 1/2 chicken breast

lunch 13 Aug

Afternoon snack – Woolworth Pop crisps (air popped potato snack)

Dinner – 1/2 cup spaghetti, broccoli and cauliflower, chicken breast

dinner 13 aug

Wine… 3 glasses of Chenin Blanc

MyFitnessPal summary

13 Aug thur

The Pop Crisps are my biggest regret. Though I enjoyed them.

So, ya…

It’s not looking good. Especially considering that I don’t exercise. The day I regain my desire to sweat, will be the beginning of better things.

There is a dress I bought that I can’t wait to wear in summer. But there is no way I can rock the dress with my arms looking the way they are.

Right now I craving a Woolworths Blueberry Muffin – 387 calories… which really isn’t bad.

Right?

I think I know why I’ve been eating so much

You know how they say binge eating is cause by emotional problems? And I’ve never considered myself a person with emotional problems…. I’m not grieving, I haven’t broken up with anyone, I’m not depressed etc.

However, I am unhappy about work. Not the actual job itself, but I’m frustrated about my salary. I don’t want to earn more money, I NEEEEEED to earn more money. I can’t afford anything (except for food… ironically) right now and it’s frustrating.

When I was content, I could wholeheartedly concentrate on my weight loss goals and changing my mindset towards food and exercise.

Right now I feel as if I have a lot on my mind and food helps me quiet down the voices and numb the feelings of anxiety I have about the future.

I was hoping to be well on my way to saving up for a trip to Europe next year… but I don’t have enough money to be putting into savings for a trip to Zim this December, let alone a trip to Europe.

I feel like I’m floating in nothing-ness and don’t know how to jump onto the next ship and sail to contentment…. I feel stuck.

Obviously, I could job hunt and look for something else, but it’s not so easy(there aren’t a lot of positions available for me at the moment).

Anyway, I stepped on the scale and saw what I was expecting…92.0kg. I’m not surprised considering the type of weekend I had.

I had FOUR pieces of KFC chicken and wine on Friday night. Saturday my beloved boyfriend decided we were gonna have pizza for lunch (I didn’t protest because I wasn’t in the mood to argue… and I didn’t have an alternative to suggest anyway).

Saturday evening I has some more of  the left over pizza from the afternoon… with wine… then began snacking on pop corn, potato chips (with dip) and cake… in between many sips of wine. I had friends over at my place and hence the reason I “let myself go”

Sunday I woke up feeling like shit and really felt like having a veggie type of meal. I needed to get food at the shops because I had nothing in the house. I ended up getting a meal special with macaroni cheese and a broccoli and cauliflower bake and chicken nuggets. I also got some roasted chicken.

I ate half the portion of the mac & cheese and broccoli bake and some chicken thigh + drumstick.

I slept all afternoon, then had a snack of crackers and cream cheese. I have no idea how much I ate… There wasn’t much cream cheese left…about 2 tablespoons or so.

Dinner, I fried spinach with beef and had it with the left over mac & cheese and broccoli bake. And just before bed, I had a drumstick because I’m greedy.

Anyway, today is a new day. As I said in my previous blog, I’d like to lose 3kgs by my birthday on 6 July. I have 4 weeks to achieve this. It sounds easy enough in my head… but doing it is another story.

Today I am definitely walking home, and I will go on a quick 10 -15 minute run.

I’ve not written in a while…and i’ve regained weight

By 1 March 2015, i’d managed to go down in weight to 87kg. I was a very happy girl who watched what she ate and exercised as much as her laziness would allow her.

But, something happened…I got a boyfriend. Someone who told me I was beautiful and wonderful….someone who said my “curves” are what caught his eye. Someone who wasn’t disgusted by what I look like.

And obviously with new love comes loads of dinner dates… and we are both wine lovers… so wine intake has increased.

In the 10 weeks or so I’ve been with him, I’ve put on 4kgs. Sometime last week I weighed more that I have ever weighed in my WHOLE life… a super sexy 92kgs… just 8kgs away from 100kgs. This morning I was 91.5kg 😦

I’ve gone on a couple of runs with him… but he can’t join me everyday because of work… He has suggested running in the morning, but i am more likely to sell my soul to the devil than wake up every morning to go for a run.

I’ve not stepped inside the gym for about 2 months now… I’ve simply not felt like it. And I have suffered because of it.

The scale is showing me that I do not have the luxury of eating what I want and not exercising.

So I need to get back on track.

I’d told myself, earlier this year, that I’d lose 10kg by my birthday on 6 July.

Obviously, unless i stop eating altogether, this isn’t going to happen.

However, I challenge myself to lose 3kgs by 6 July 2015.

I have decided to do at least 10 minutes of exercise EVERYDAY. And by exercise I mean sweating, out of breathe, heart pumping.

I have an 8 week running challenge I’ll be starting on today… It’s for Mon, Wed and Friday… on the other days I’ll do a 10 minute exercise video.

By the end of June I would have lost 3kgs.

I am going to start writing again, because this has helped me in the past. When I stopped writing, I started gaining weight. Writing helps me confront my eating and exercise habits. and writing my goals helps make me accountable.

Also, I love writing about my achievements… and reading on previous challenges that I have overcome.

Let’s do this!