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Hi. I am still fat

Sooooo, I have not written in a very long time. And that is because I have been eating.

Last Nov/December I had started on a re-freshed weight loss effort. My motivation was my friend’s wedding where I was going to be a bridesmaid. I deliberately sent measurements that were an inch less than the real ones to force me to lose weight. If i was fat, I woudn’t be able to fit into the dress.

I did very well by going down from 91.2kg to 87.2kg.

BUT! I ended up not being able to go for the wedding because of finances.

PLUS, December happened.

So, I have re-gained it all… well, I was 90.2 this morning šŸ˜¦

The Goal

I would like to lose 10kgs by 30 April 2017 – 3.5 months from now

Part 1: I want to drop 5kgs first. This needs to happen by 15 February – About a month from now. This equates to about 1kg per week. And I believe it is possible as I have done it before.

Part 2: After the first 5kg is done, I will work towards the other 5kgs. I know it will be harder, that’s why I am giving myself more time to get rid of it.

I am hoping that by 30 April, I would have adopted healthier eating habits, smaller portions and more exercise.

The 2017 Plan

To fight the fat, I am going to eat less. My new job makes that very possible. I am too far from any shops and so, can’t just go out the door for a quick snack.

Whatever I bring from home is all I can eat.

I don’t eat breakfast anymore. I only have lunch at 12pm. Usually I will have 3 or 4 slices of bread with tomato, ham and slice of cheese. And then not eat anything until I have supper at home.

Yesterday I was bad and spent waaaay too much money on a piece of carrot cake from the coffee shop downstairs. That won’t be happening again because it is a waste of money and I ALWAYS feel bad when I eat like that.

One thing I need to learn how to do is to portion control dinner. Because my last meal was at lunch, I find myself eating way too much at supper.

Last week I did ok with regards to this “diet”, but had potato chips and other stuff. The weekend I binged quite a bit – IT WAS BAD. Wolfing down 8 KFC wings + a big packet of potato chips is not normal.

I want to start running.. even if it is for 10 minutes. That’s where the challenge is going to be.




The YO-YO is the devil!

So, i had been doing well… watching my food and recording it everyday etc.

Then I stopped because I believed I was too busy to write and to log my food.

The result has been devastating.

One week of bad eating has seen me put on 3kgs! i kid you not.

The most logical explanation for this is that I am yo-yoing.

By eating fewer calories one week, then eating too many the next week, I’m gaining a lot of weight.

I might lose 1kg by eating well one week, then regain 2kg the next week when eating badly.

So, last week has been a lesson for me NOT TO DROP THE BALL!!!

Exercise will become easier for me as we head into summer with the sun rising earlier in the morning (for morning runs) and setting later (for after-work runs).

I’ve planned this week’s lunches, already (low carb veggies with a piece of chicken breast.)

Dinner will be the usual rice, meat and veg.

NO SNACKS!!!!! and no mid-week wine.

I’ll need to get fruit to nibble on mid-afternoon.

It’s a pity I have no self- discipline, otherwise, I’d get a packet of little chocolates and only have one per day.

Why I weigh myself everyday

You will read, more than once, that weighing yourself everyday is a very bad idea. Most say it is not good because your weight fluctuates and you will get discouraged. Most recommend weighing once a week or once a month.

Now, with me, I NEED to weigh myself everyday. It is a reminder of my goal to lose weight. It has become routine… I wake u, take a bath, then weigh myself before I even put on my deodorant.

Weighing myself everyday has taught me how my body works with regards to weight fluctuation. I have knowledge on what happens when I eat a certain way in a week and what happens when I exercise consistently in a week.

Let’s compare last week and this week.


I ate very well and has NO alcohol between Monday and Thursday. I walked home everyday and only went to the gym on Thursday. And the scale rewarded me. I started off at 88.2kg, and by Saturday morning I was at 87.5kg… the lowest I have been in MONTHS!!!!


I went to the gym on Saturday, Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday… However, I ate quite a bit. Actually, I did not eat a lot, but had bad meal choices. I also had quite a lot of sweets through out the week. I started the week at 88.0kg… Friday I am at 88.9kg.

Through out the week I was conscious of the weight creeping up and because of that, am making conscious decisions to eat better this weekend. Also, That weight creeping up motivated me to go to the gym everyday this week.

This weight gain has shown me, ONCE AGAIN that slip-ups lead to weight gain. I CAN NOT eat whatever I want. I NEED to make better food choices.

Also, my experience has shown that exercise helps me to maintain a certain weight, even if I have been eating a bit badly.

I am a person who thinks BELIEVES that they eat healthy most of the time. I believe that 70% of the time I eat well, with a large portion of the other 30% being wine tendencies.

If I weighed myself once a month, and see no changes or weight gain, I’d get disheartened. I’m a person who always wants to feel in control… and daily weighing helps me do this.

SERIOUSLY considering getting a kit kat

Am I hungry? No – I just had lunch.

Do I have an actual craving for it? No – If I did I would not be writing about it, I’d be eating it.

So why do I want to get one? Because I have the cash. I carried some money to get a few things for the house. It’s not even a lot of money. Just enough for some spinach and a bit of meat.

I want a Kit Kat simply because I could have one if I wanted to. Also because I am thinking it’s ”only” 230 calories….

But I’m not going to.

If I had self control I could get myself some chocolate and only have one block, or finger… but we all know I would obliterate the whole chocolate bar in record time.

Anyway, no chocolate for me….it’s Wednesday, and since last Thursday, 6 days ago, the only ‘bad’ food I’ve had is a Blueberry Muffin…And I’d like to continue the no bad food vibe.

My only weakness at the moment is wine….but that is a battle I’m not yet ready to confront.

For today, I am going to glue my bum to this chair and NOT move!!!!